"Oh God..." I muttered under my breath as I was pushed out of the van. I remembered the first time I had arrived here. That had been a 'fun' day.
"Can you get me to a doctor?" I asked the nearest guard, my face turning a little green and white.
Before the guard answer, I walked up. Felix may have still not been my most favorite person in the world but I was willing to help him. "Follow me. We have a few doctors in the main building." I said sort of flatly.
*I shot Anjali I a small 'WTF?' look, and shrugged, fallowing Brenden while holding my side. It wasn't one of those scenarios where it was an awkward silence. They really didn't have anything to say to eachother.*
I wanted to follow them but I was pushed aside by a guard towards where my dorm was going to be and blah blah blah. Hopefully Brenden wouldn't go psychopath on Felix and upturn the situation.
I took out the key to the main building when we arrived there and unlocked it. I walked down a fancy hallway to wear the doctors were. "Doctor Sammy! We have a patience."
(That was SO un-grammafied! I'M SO PROUD!) *I looked up and down the hall.. This place hadn't changed much. Same people, same pictures, same nurses.*
(What? Oh. FAIL.) "Oh my! Mr. Bolt is it? Come on back you need that checked out right away." I said as soon as I came to the door.
"Nice to see you too."I muttered fallowing Doctor Sammy. "Still here..."
"I got nothing better to do with my life and I get paid." I said with a shrug, walking into the room. "Just take a seat on the bench. You may want to roll up your shirt or take it off so we can look at that wound. I'll be right back." I ducked away into another room to get some stuff to help with infection prevention and patching up.
*I went to go sit on the bench and quickly took my bloodied shirt off. Wow. I had banged it up pretty good the first time, but now it looked even worse. Thanks police officers, really.
I came back in with the stuff needed and cracked my knuckles for good measure. "So, it looks like a reopened wound. Probably with some patching up and disinfectant, it should be fine as long as you don't move around too much." I babbled on. I plucked up a washcloth and wetted it in the sink and washed off the wound. "Sorry if it stings."
"That's ok..."I said, looking at the floor. "Anything uber interesting happen while I was gone for the past few months?" I asked.
"Not really. This place is pretty much one of the most boring places you can find." I replied, applying the disinfectant to the wound.
*I flinched a little bit but kept my ground. "Well, that's good I guess/" I actually wasn't sure. Hmmmmm. That doesn't usually happen.
"I'm obviously not a teenager anymore and I don't take part in the general 'gossip' but Brenden did get himself a girlfriend at one point." I said as started wrapping the wound up. "Delilah was her name. Very sweet girl. But I don't think he's completely over your girl yet." I sighed, sounding a bit disapproving.
"Not surprising. I wouldn't get over her-- ever." I said, slowly and lowly. "But I guess it's good Brenden has another girl. With that, he may be happier eventually.*
"Ah, I wish I could say they were still together." I sighed, shaking my head as I touched the whole process up. "Delilah realized that as far as his attention for her, it was limited because of something. So she broke off the relationship. Brenden was a bit beaten up about only for a little bit though."
"Is he.. sullen, or sulking? Do you know what it's about?"I questioned, wanting to know the facts so I know if I should tell Anjali about it or not--- if I ever got to see her again.
"Ever since you guys kind of faded from his life, the usual for him is quietness and reservedness." I replied, sitting back to observe my work. "I'm not sure if it's losing Ms. Smithers or that adventurous life or something else..."
"If anything, it's probably both, but if you to weight more on one side..."I trailed, admiring at the work she had done. Maybe he should get her to go work at the hospital with Dr. Henry. It stung, but it looked good.
"I think we both know which one would have more weight." I said with a nod. "WELL, it's time for you to head to your dorm. Here's the info. Lay low, no more fighting for a week or two."
*I stared at the info paper, "Is this right next to the psych ward, because usually if someone is to dorm in there it say a lot different.."I asked watching the card.
"No, Brenden cleared that up with the administrators. You have a regular dorm but you'll be on watch." I replied.
"Can you please tell them that I did not try to commit suicide?"I pleaded.
"I believe you but no one's gonna believe someone who wasn't there to witness it. If Anjali didn't convince them, you most likely should give up on that til they figure it out on their own." I sighed, shaking my head as I pulled of my gloves and washed my hands.
"Well this is just great!" I said sarcastically, not satisfied that I'm on probation. "Well...at least I won't be with the psycho's." I shuddered, standing up.
"Well, good luck out there, Mr. Bolt." I said, patting Felix on the shoulder.
I sat sprawled on my bed in the dorm. I refused to go to classes right now and I had nothing better to do than just sit and study the ceiling. I hoped Felix was okay and there was no infection in the wound as well. Though I was exhausted, I couldn't get to sleep no matter how much I tried.
*I went to the front desk and asked for Anjali Smithers room and she sent me to 1156. I thanked her and started heading up the stairs. I finally reached floor 9 and walked down the hall slowly. My dorm was a floor down. I slowly knocked on her door, feeling a little satisfied with the day.*
I hopped up and wandered over to the door. I opened the door and grinned at the sight of Felix. "Why hello! You all patched up?" I asked, stepping aside to let Felix inside the dorm.
"Yep! She had to push all my intestine's into my body and then duct taped it, but you can barley tell, can you?" I grinned, realizing that I left my shirt back in the nurses. Great, now all I'd have is Private School shirts.*
"Mmm, sounds delicious." I replied, making a disturbed face. "That is quite a good job she did."
"Yep. Plus, you'll never guess what info she gave me..." I said, making a 'can I come in' gesture.
"Oh god what did she tell you this time?" I asked, nodding.
*I trudged into the room and plopped myself on the island's chair, "She told me Brenden is totally sullen. He got a girlfriend but never payed attention to her so she broke up with him. He's still not over you and is missing all the action that used to go on. Plus for some reason, he cleared my name though I'm still on 'mental probation.'"I dished, looking at the room. It was well put together, I wondered how long it would take for Anjali to mess it up. (:D)
"Ah, well. I can say I feel bad for him but there's no way I can help him with that issue." I replied thoughtfully. "I trained him a bit but at this point he'd get in the way. And it's not my fault that I somehow ruined his love life inadvertently." I shook my head as I put somethings in the kitchen in place.
I sat in my dorm, twirling a wrench in my hand. My Camaro sat in the parking lot. I could see it from my window. I liked to be able to see it. My fingers itched to be working on something mechanical and broken.
*I laughed for the first time in a while. I was going to say something but I shook my head deciding not to. (I am out of idea's.) I decided that this chair was uncomfortable and went over to a different chair. Ah. Better.
*I knocked on Sylvie's door, fiddling with the tie on my uniform. God, I was surprised I hadn't remembered how much I hated this place.*
"Playing a 'Forever Alone' version of musical chairs over there?" I asked, lifting an eyebrow.
"You guessed it!" I smiled, deliberately moving to the next chair. "They're all uncomfortable. Get some better chair's, 'lady."
"It's like they're my chairs, more the school's crap chairs." I pointed out, twirling a meat knife experimentally. "Since when is my title 'lady?'"
"When I decided three minutes ago that you have a totally complicated name. It's much easier for everyone to call you that now." I replied, fiddling with an apple, deciding not to eat it. I glanced at the clock, 4:56 AM. "Wow... it's a little late isn't it?" I say, mostly to myself.
"My name's not THAT confusing." I said, rolling my eyes and reluctantly putting the meat knife away. "Yeah but I'm surprisingly not that tired anyway. You?"
*I shrugged, "I'm used to keeping myself awake so I still have a good 67 hours in me." I turned, jumping off the chair to move the the couch. This place was very ugly.
"That's a nice round number." I replied, looking around. This place would need some fixing up and messing up if I was going to live here.
"You betcha!" I turned my attention to the tv for a moment before asking, "So... whats our move now? I'm pretty sure ma brother and Sylvie are here."
"Meet up with them?" I said with a shrug. "No fighting though cause that wound's gonna open back up and I don't think you can just bounce back again."
"Third times the charm. Maybe It'll get infected!" I said with a face of excitement. "It won't do us much good to stay here. Were street smart, not book smart."
"And you're gonna be death smart if we don't just hang tight for now. Let's go meet up with Phoenix and Sylvie and go from there." I replied.
"But I'm tired!!!" I whined, thrashing my feet and hands. I was enjoying myself.
"Well then, let's go to your room! Nappy time!" I said in a high voice, imitating some sort of nanny.
"BUT IM NOT TIRED!" I yelled, thrashing more.
"You just said you were you little liar! Come now!" I said, pulling on Felix's arm.
"YOUR SO MEAN! I HATE YOU!" I growled pushing her playfully as I stood up.
"Well that's nice! I love you too!" I said, sticking my nose up.
I sighed, and put down my wrench.
*I grinned, "What kind of person are you?" I asked, pretending to walk away.
"I what kind of person are YOU?" I snapped back, sticking my nose up in the air farther, looking most-likely ridiculous.
"What is it Lassie? LIL' TIMMYS IN A WELL?" I yelled, turning around and tackling Anjali to the ground already laughing.
*I waited impatiently outside Sylvie's door, my blue and purple hair ruffling in the air-conditioned air, "I NEED YOUR HELP ON SOMETHING!"I called loudly.
"AHH!!!" I yelled in surprise, crashing to the floor, struggling. "God you're heavy."
"It doesn't bother me.... It's more of a compliment, remember?" I said, smiling.
"Well it bothers me when you're crushing me." I said in a small voice, trying not to laugh. "Gosh you gotta lay off the brownies."
"THEIR DONUTS! IF YOUR NOT GONNA GET IT RIGHT!" I glared which ended up in another grin. My face hurt from smiling so much.
"GOSH THERE'S NO NEED TO BE ALL FEISTY!" I yelled, smiling.
I opened the door to see Phoenix. "Oh. Hey. You needed help with something?" I said.
*I rolled my eyes, "I need to know what colors to dye my hair with." I said sarcastically, pulling my hand up to show Sylvie that my finger was tightly knotted into the tie.
I looked at his hand in disbelief. "Your hand is stuck in your tie. Really?"
"I'm not good at this stuff!" I glared, my fingers starting to look purple after losing circulation.
"Honestly!" I muttered and set about removing his hand from his tie.
*I a look of relief crossed my face, "Thank you." I said, grinning.
"You really should learn to tie your own tie." I joked.
"But that's the only reason I need you around!" He replied, his eyes showing the laughter that was insudiable.
"See, this is why no one really likes you.." I started to get comfrotable ontop of her as I continued speaking-- inches away from falling. "You never get anything right, and your such a cluts! (?)"
"Get off me you giant oaf!" I snapped, scrambling under the heavy weight that was Felix. "Hm? I don't get anything right I see and no one likes me? Let's see what you're saying when I KILL YOU!"
"The ONLY reason?" I asked jokingly, my eyes glinting with amusement and laughter.
"Oaf? That's the new one...." he laughed, "You could never kill me-- I'm to fat for you to even get up!"
"Yea, what did you think I wanted you around for? I certainly don't like you or anything," he shrugged watching her tie his tie.
I finally just gave up trying to struggle up under Felix's weight and just sat there limply. "At least you can admit you're as fat as a manatee." I muttered.
"I love manatees!" I pretended to squeal and got up from her, putting my hand out to help her up.
"They are of your species so that makes sense." I pointed out, taking his hands and getting up, brushing myself off.
"You got me," I shrugged, making sure she was standing steady before going towards her fridge, looking out the window to see it got a lot darker-- he didn't think that was possible. "Milk, low-fat, low-calorie lemonade, water in a can, water in a cup, water in a picher... God, do you have anything fattening or are you going anarexic on me?"
"I haven't been out to the store yet. I can promise, I'm not going anorexic. I like havin' some meat on me." I replied, patting my stomach.
"I can't wait until I can go to the group and announce my girlfriend's not anorexic!" I joked, closing the fridge and settiling for nothing. "They'll be so proud I'm not under an influence."
"You could easily have gone to Felix or Anjali, but you came to me instead. Now, what does that tell me?" I joked.
"That your a better knot-tyer than both of them?" he laughed.
"Well lucky you." I mocked, sticking out my tongue and plopping down on the couch. "Hm...I don't want to go outside. This school is stupid."
"It's the top academic school in the whole east coast, it's hardly stupid." he replied in a fake british accent, trying to imitate the headmistress.
"Top academic school my ass." I growled, drumming my fingers on the couch arm aimlessly.
*I plopped down onto the chair that sat next to the couch, staring at the cup of water. "I don't want to drink it cause it may be poisionous or used for brainwashing, but I'm parched, really." he said aloud, staring at the crystal clear water.
"Ah yes. Poisonous water. That's a real killer." I agreed, nodding, tapping the glass. "Maybe Brenden put a rufees in it."
*I didn't respond and slowly got up to drain the water down the drain. "I have a theoretical question for you." I said, slowly.
"Shoot." I said simply, observing my hand.
"If I asked you to stay here while I broke out for maybe... a day or so, would you?" I asked plain and simple, trying not to say, If I asked you to stay here while I broke out for maybe a week or two.
"Psh. No." I scoffed, glaring at the mere mention of such an idea. "Why wouldn't I take advantage of an opening to get out of this hellhole? Do you think I'm really THAT stupid?"
*I shrugged, pretending damn good that I was dismissing the subject, "Just a theoretical question, were under watch here anyway, I wouldn't be surprised if there's guards outside..."
"Whatever." I muttered, telling this wasn't completely dropped. Nothing was ever dropped that fast. "I think I should probably grab some food and crap since I do want to eat more than lowfat milk and cereal for dinner. Want to come along?" I asked as I got up and shrugged on a sweatshirt.
"Uh... Anjali.." I stood there by the island, unmoving. "It's 3:48 in the morning... I don't think anything will be open." I laughed.
"You'd be surprised." I laughed halfheartedly as I grabbed the keys to the dorm and opened the door. "Coming?"
"Yeah, keep denying it..." I giggled teasingly.
*I shook my head, "Mine as well get some sleep, seeing how I haven't slept in 52 hours..."
"It looks perfect." he said, turning around and walking away-- slowly.
"Alrighty then. I'll be back." I said with a smile, swishing out the door and locking it behind me.
*That was a lame attempt-- locking the door. He could just jump out the window. I quickly opened the window and jumped out-- not as easily with my wound, but still awesomely-- ontop of the bagel shop. Their letters of their name had dissapeared. Aww. He always enjoyed looking at the name.*
I walked around the dorm building, my sharp eyes tracking Felix on top of the bagel building. I hadn't expected him to stay put so I wasn't surprised. I walked along, tossing my hair back out of my eyes as I took my time walking off to the small store in the school's available plaza.
"Of course it does." I smiled as he walked away.
"Thanks, your now documented as useful." I called, turning around to go back to her door, not wanting to be RUDE or anything.
*I trotted ontop of the bulding, carefully, my eyes narrowing in the darkness, "Shannox?" I whispered, seeing the outline of a girl in the building next to the bagel shop.
I continued walking to a 24/7 Wegmans and entered. I wasn't a big fan of shopping in general so I moved quickly and only got what was needed. I thanked the cashier and left once I had gotten everything and started walking back towards the dorms.
"You were always such a blind man-- it's a wonder how you've lived this long!"I laughed, coming up from behind Shannox-- who I had tied by the hands and feet-- gunpointed.
*I glared, "It's nice to see you again, sweet-heart. Now, now, now, what have you gotten yourself into? I don't want to have to kill you, now do I?"I faked smile, slowly putting my hand in my jacket. "Don't--" she said, holding up her gun, "Or she get's it." she smiled. "See, If that really were my sister, I would actually be afraid," I replied, smiling evily.
I thought I heard something and spun around and saw nothing. I shook off as overly-cautiousness and kept walking.
*I stared at the girl in my hands who was grinning evily, and truth be told-- her eyes were a little too green and hair a little too blonde. "Who the hell---" I was cut off as a man grabbed my arms from behind, making my gun fall.
*I smiled, "You see, we've been tracking you for quite some time, FRIEND, and some of my insiders knew you'd be here." My buddy, Alec tightened his grip on her arms. "You seem, there are some things almost NOBODY knows about me.."
(I'mma capitolize all the things that should be italic...lol)
*I frowned for a moment and then gasped, "Your not working for him! He's worse than your parents," I was truly shocked, that GUY was HORRIBLE. Even the thought of Felix standing next to him was astonishing. "He's using you, even I would know that without being your enemy." My arms were hurting now and I was so surprised to see him here, as I have thought before. "Anyway, we have guys fallowing her. EVERYWHERE and ANYWHERE."
I walked up the stairs of the dorm building and unlocked the door to mine. I swung in a clicked the door shut quickly behind me, locking it. Sighing, I walked into the kitchen and put things quickly into place. The sky was now turning a faint gray announcing the incoming dawn.
"Why are you so surprised? I believe in what Scar says-- he's a good man, pays well, gave me the best position of all, gives US protection. You couldn't have her fallowed if you wanted to." I growled, pulling up my sleeve to see the small tattoo of a scar that marked me as important. But the little voice in the back of my mind screamed something, I couldn't understand.
"Since you'll probably send me to Scar, or worse, I mine as well tell you. Your parents don't have any alliegance for me whats so ever. They've got insiders in Scar's gang, people that have double crossed before. Not only that, but your being replaced--" I said simply, ".. and your parents are quite fond of your girlfriend, you'll see that QUITE SOON." I laughed, as Felix snapped his fingers and turned, making the man lead me away with the woman who was untied.
*I turned away, eyes gleaming. Holly J. certianly wouldn't understand. This was for his family-- or part of it anyway. It was for their protection-- anyway, with being Scar's second in command, he could help bring peace to the world and make it good instead of evil. But he instantly knew Holly J. was right. There are insiders. But that little thing that didn't bother Felix as much now as it would later, was, what did she mean about replacement?*
*I started off the roof and towards my dorm in slick black night. I had to use the window-- and with luck, that happened to be right outside Anjali's bedroom. I didn't really want to talk to her right now-- I'd say something stupid and she'd never understand what I'm doing for her.... I quickly opened the window- too loudly at that, and slipped in.*
I strutted onto the rooftop nonchalantly, chewing on a toothpick. "Wassup? You must be Felix." I said with a silky voice, my emerald green eyes flashing. "I'm Ace." I didn't make any move to shake hands or anything, just kind of paced around.
*Before reaching the windowcill, I slowly climbed back out, suddenly interested, "Sup?" I asked, casually.
*Heh, these guys were stupid. Not only was I sitting outside the girls window, but I was sitting RIGHT under them. God, I was the most awesome spy-stalker ever!*
I shrugged, grinning. "Eh, just walkin' around." I spit the toothpick out in a nearby bush and licked my lips tentatively. "Doesn't the school frown upon climbin' into people's windows at night?"
*I rolled my eyes, "Well, first of all-- if I was climbing into someone's window, it would just happen to be my girlfriends, but since I'm climbing into a hall window, I don't think it counts." I matched his tone, shrugging.
I lifted an eyebrow, cocking my head. "Girlfriend? Ah, tell me about her. If she nice? Hm...You don't seem like a guy who would settle for nice." I said, observing Felix with a sharp gaze.
"You don't no nothing about me,"I growled, leaning onto the satelitte, "Why would you want to know? Never had one?"
I laughed a sort of short and brittle laugh. "I've had many thank you and I just think you'd make a good friend, hm?" I laughed again, more heartier this time. "Since I'll become a much bigger part of your life than you think."
"Really? So I suppose your my replacement my friend was talking about,"I replied, no hint of joking in my voice or eyes, but I wasn't expecting that it was to be true.
"Hm, you're more clever than you let on now." I said with a laugh. I grinned, showing perfect white teeth. "Don't worry, I won't do anything to Ms. Smithers. I've actually come to favor her based on her files."
I was presently sitting on the couch, watching a rerun of Doctor Who and starting to drift off. I hadn't gotten any sleep that night so I was whipped an oblivious to any goings on.
*I locked the doors, going towards the sink and washing my hands. Soon, I decided to get a glass and some water. Chugging it down, I put it into the dishwasher and then went into the pantry and took out a spare cookie- munching on it before I went to go hop into the shower. It was nice cause I was sorting my thoughts out. Holly J. was right. Someone was probably spying on Anjali. I don't want to be overprotective, but can I tell her? She looked half-dead out there. I eventually got out of the shower and put the same clothes on and brushed my teeth with a spare toothbrush I found under the sink. Great. I opened the door and slowly went to claim a chair.*
"Sup?" I said drowsily as Felix came in, I had been nodding off and my neck was starting to hurt so I propped it up with a nearby pillow.
"Just mulling over some things that have happened in the last 20 minutes... Nothing out of the ordinary..."I tried to keep it normal.
"Last 20 minutes?" I asked, my attention sparking slightly. "You usually don't mull things over unless they are at least a bit important."
*I shrugged, "Lots 'o' things could be important... Like, why did I eat the last cookie cause I'd know I'd have to go out and buy some more."
I sat down on a nearby object on the roof, tapping my fingers on my chin. I had to wait for the moment to strike.
I rolled my eyes and stiffly shook my head. "I think you're lying but I'm not in the mood to pursue it." I sighed, dropping my head back.
"I'll tell you tomorrow, I promise." I replied, planning on what I would share and what I wouldn't.
I hopped up and climbed quickly down the fire escape. I went into the dorm building and changed into a school uniform and situated myself so I looked like one of the staff. I climbed the stairs quickly and came to Anjali's dorm. I knocked lightly and called "Ms. Smithers! We have a letter for you." I pulled out the letter from her former apprentice Stormy that I had intercepted and waited patiently.
*I grounded my teeth like steel, "Nooooo,"I growled under my breath, doing everything I could not to jump up, open the door and punch Ace in the face.
I moaned slightly and got to my feet reluctantly. I opened the door to see a tall guy with light blond, almost white hair, emerald eyes, and a perfect smile. I was caught off guard for a moment but shook my head. He held out the letter and I grabbed it quickly. "Thank you." I said hastily with a smile and I clicked the door shut.
"Who's it from?"I asked, my voice calm as I got up and went towards the island, leaning against that.
I grinned back, my eyes shining. The plan was going great. I couldn't help but think Anjali was even more...stunning...I guess you could say in person. I walked back down the stairs after a second and exited the building, unsure of where to go at this point.
"Stormy," I answered, opening the letter quickly. I scanned it and gathered that Stormy and the others were safe and that they had heard a prediction of another incoming StandStill that we were warned to prepare for just in case. "Hm...Another StandStill..."
"We need to get out of here." I said, vaguely. "This whole place, right now. Just leave, don't look back. Find Stormy and Jason, leave my brother a message." I knew I had nothing to bring but the clothes I was wearing an a small little pack of stuff.
"We were directed to stay here as long as necessary and I don't think we should leave." I replied after a moment of awkward silence. "We don't need any run-ins right now."
"You.. you don't understand.."I didn't really want to tell her now. I didn't know how she'd react. "Thatt--- guy. He's supposed to be my replacement."I dished.
"Replacement?" I asked, raising an eyebrow. "What is that supposed to mean?"
"My parents are planning something." To get rid of me." I replied, tapping my fingers slightly on the island.
"Wh-Why would they do that and what would that guy have to do with it?" I stuttered.
"Replacement. Anjali. You're more useful to them than I am." I pointed out.
"No I'm not, you're the son," I scoffed, shaking my head. "I don't see the point of a replacement."
"They're interested in you. They want to use you, to marry that...thing and be kind of like a slave to them. They thought I was useful and tried to get me together with Holly J, remember?" I was being nostalgic.
"Well, it's not gonna work. I'm not stupid and I'm not gonna fall for it like you did with the stupid brownies." I replied stiffly, realizing I must sound pretty defensive. "I don't even know that guy, it's not like I'm going to fall for him."
"I hate to disagree with you love, but that's where you're wrong. Though I may be able to stop them, they have ways to make you forget about me or anything they want. To make you believe he's the one for you. Magical brownies or not." I also wanted to say, but I won't let that happen with all of my men around, but I didn't want to go into that.
"I'm not ignorant and I know how to avoid these issues. I'm offended Felix. I really am." I growled, opening the door to the dorm and walking out.
I looked up from my bench as Anjali stormed out. She glanced at me and glared coldly. I got up and wandered over. "What's up?" I asked.
"It's nothing. Go away." I snapped.
"You say that now." I called, shrugging and walking behind her, going to my dorm.
"Fine, be that way." I replied, turning away.
I sighed, unsure of saying anything to this dude. I didn't have anyone else so I inhaled slowly. "Who are you?"
I unnervingly decided to go back in the room and use the glass doors. Why? I didn't know. I quickly climbed up onto the roof and was knocked off and sent into the bushes by a dark and surprising scary man.
"Ace Smith." I answered with a warm smile. "You must be Anjali."
"Indeed I am." I said with a smile back. "You new here?"
Ugh. Parents and Ace...Crap. I wasn't knocked out, or unconscious. I was trying to fight the man when the others started to attack me, each laughing, and assumingly the head guy saying. "It's a good thing Ace is here to save the poor girl having to be stuck with this mess."
"Yep." I sighed, leaning back. "That Brenden dude kinda weirds me out. What's his deal?"
I shrugged, "I think he has some issues or something." I stopped, looking at Ace quietly. His light hair billowed a littien in the wind and he had his jaw set as he observes the sky.
"Crap.."I muttered as he stepped on my throat, suffocating me until he made me black out. All I could hear was, "Mama Bird has took the bait. Daddy Bird is down for the count."
*I looked over at Anjali with the corner of my eye. I smiled. "Many people do." I said with a laugh."Who's that Felix dude?" I asked, suddenly.
"He's a friend of mine. I had a run in with him."I said, shortly.
Back in the van...
"Yeah. So. I really hate the name Daddy Bird, I mean, who came up with that, really?" I was now awake, tied up and as naggy as ever. "It was Shawn. Since we wouldn't have your codenames be 'Justin Bieber' and 'Selena Gomez' we promised him he could pick some other names." the guard replied. "Ah. I see." I laughed, Shawn was always bright. "So I assume you guys are taking me someplace where you think I won't be able to escape but I will?" the guard smiled, "We've got highter tech now, boi. All I can say is, it's plesant for nice people."
"Ahh..."I trailed off. "He's just a friend?"
"Why would you care?" I said weakly, looking at Ace sideways.
"You've got to be kidding me." Here we were, surrounded by bunnies and other pets. Yeah. LIke I wouldn't enjoy this!
"Whoah. I didn't meant to intrude on anything."I said, holding up my hands.
*I rolled my eyes and shook my head, looking away.*
"PUPPIES!" I pretended to squeal! Running towards the dogs... The guards exchanged weird glances as they watched me go.
(LOL!) *I sighed and looked down at my feet, pretending to look a bit hurt, my white hair hanging around my face.*
*I looked up, feeling a bit guilty but not enough to say anything.*
"Why did the boss send us here? He had to know his son is...prissy." a guard said as I made kissy faces at a brown and black bunny. It was hilarious because I was doing it only to see their funny reactions.
*I knew the reactions I could get but it was a crucial step. I sung over and kissed Anjali, feeling her siffen in surprise. She didn't move from the stun but soon pulled away.*
"What?" I breathed, staring into Ace's calm, green eyes with my wide blue ones.
*As I was enjoying myself, I notcied the big, buff guard was on the phone, laughing, "So Ace made the move! HAH! What kind of idiot is that girl, I mean really.." I was about to jump up and attack the man and ask him what he ment, but I already knew. He kissed her. That bastard kissed her! IT TOOK HIM LIKE 20 SECONDS! Outrage filled me. It was time to make a call and get one of my buddies to be Ace's new best friend.
I grinned and straightened up. Anjali looked like a deer in the headlights, her big blue eyes wide and her mouth propped open in surprise. I didn't anything, just kept a grin on my face.
My fists clenched and unclenched in my lap and I finally looked away. I shut my mouth and blinked. How the hell was i supposed to react to that? I wanted to slap this prettyboy across the face but my hands refused to move. I kept my gaze on my shoes, my jaw clamped tightly shut.
*I ended up slumping down onto the ground. This sucked. Really, that girl fell for it THAT fast. Even after he warned her. THEY DIDN'T EVEN USE MAGICAL BROWNIES. Maybe he was being overprotective.. Maybe he should just stop.. He wasn't her father.. She could make her own decisions. If she wanted Ace and to work for her parents, what would he care? She ment nothing to him anymore.*
"Well, I gotta head out. I'll see you later," I stood up and stretched as Anjali still refused to look up at me. I patted her head and remembered something I had read in her files. "Angie."
"Sooo... pretty boy." I smiled, being under the alligance of Scar, I knew exactly who he was. I was here to help him out. "Wanna send a letter to ANYONE special before we take you away?" Felix looked up, shaking his head as if to say, 'I need them to keep me captive, I'll get more info,' but he shrugged at the same time, "Sure, I could send one to my..friend."
That did it. I sprung to my feet to confront Ace but he was already gone. I was tense all over and I didn't have anything to take it out on. "Son of a bitch." I growled, plopping back down on the bench and putting my head in my hands.
*I grabbed the piece of paper and pencil that he somehow produced and started writing. This was gonna help Ace a lot. But what did he care?*
I had sprinted off as soon as I saw the slightest twitch. I strutted along back towards the base. I slipped into the base with a nod and a wink to the guards. I stood outside a one way window located where Felix was being held. I grinned as I neared.
*I finished the letter, nodding to my employee. He would leave without it, but just for the show of Ace, I pretended to get all angry with the kid, who's name was Johnny. I almost attacked him, but he left the building.*
*I raced out of the building and started towards the Private School that wasn't too far away from the building. I reached it steadily, and looked through the windows until I saw Anjali sitting in the hallway. I opened the window and climbed in, "Letter for Ms. Smithers," he said, giving it to her and walking back out the window without another word.*
I swung the door open and grabbed the letter, nodding simply in thanks to the messenger. I looked down at the envelope and saw no address or anything. Totally blank. I squinted in confusion and turned it over in my hands. Who could it be from? I was a bit skittish about opening it but this couldn't go uninvestigated. I tore it open rather aggressively since I still had some anger burning inside me from my earlier stupidity. A piece of paper fell out. At first I scanned it. It was from Felix. Oh God what could this be about.
Well.. You can't say I was wrong. Don't think I don't know, cause I do. I know that you hate being called Angie, and that you love beating the crap out of people, but I also know that you took their bait, and however much you want to deny it, I'm right. Sorry, honey. You're now part of their games, and I'm afraid to say, I don't think I can save you this time. Correction, This time I don't think I want to. I'm sorry, but that's just how it is. I have secrets too. Don't think that this letter has been monitored, or I'm lying, because I'm afraid I'm not, that's the sad part about this. You'll probably be pissed, if anything. Maybe if I get lucky, my captators will send me to a sensitivity camp. Remember, I won't be there when your in trouble, and neither will pretty boy.
Don't get yourself killed, kid.
I stood there, staring at the the letter in silence. My fists clenched at the crinkling of the paper shot through the dorm like a gunshot. My teeth dug into my lower lip til I felt the salty taste of blood. I nearly slammed the paper down on the counter and went over to the sink to spit blood into it. What the hell was I supposed to do now? I couldn't go to Felix for any help and there was no way I was going to anyone else. ESPECIALLY Ace. I decided to take a shower. Showers help people with emotional mishaps, right?
*I was perched outside Felix's girlfriend's window, sitting in the bushes. I had been ordered to keep an eye on her since apparently Felix didn't want to do it anymore. Jeezus.
What did he expect me to do? Go crying to Ace? Blow up at everyone and trash the place? I felt the tingling of someone watching my spun around to see nothing. Great, now I was hallucinating. What was I coming to? I punch a nearby wall and put my hand through it. "Ow." I said in a monotone.
*I snickered, my watch was over.*
I heard something that time. I was sure of it. I didn't see anything though which made my mind whirl. WTH was going on!?
"Scar, I'm leaving. Felix..there's something going on with him. It's like he almost wanted to stay with his captors, that it wasn't just a job. He looked...heartbroken. Dead I guess. You don't think he will turn!" he said a little too loudly. A gruff voice came back, Daren didn't notice he was on speaker. "Darker is better right?" Scar laughed, hanging up.
'Oh god a spy.' I thought as I peaked around the corner of the curtain to see a guy talking on a phone. I lunged and crushed the guy to the ground, my hands around his neck, threatening to choke him. "Who do you work for and why are you here?" I growled.
I stared in shock. She was better than I thought. "S-Sc-Scar. Cause Felix was captured and you know...the letter we just wanted to make sure you were alright and stuff." Ha. His phone was so great it backfired. Because when he was trying to call Scar, it replayed their whole message again. Stupid modern technology.
My eyes narrowed and my grip tightened slightly. "You're keeping something from me." I insisted. "Who sent you specifically and why?"
I gasped, "Ok. Well...Felix kinda joined The Force..You know..Fighting Easter..World Domination...doing the good instead of evil. Well, since he gave up on you we had to make sure you'd be alright before *gasp* we left you completely alone. Make you forget about us n stuff."
"I don't WANT people watching me and everything I do let alone NEED it. Felix should know that by now. If he has truly 'given up on me', then he needs to back off." I nearly spat, keeping my emotions masked and releasing my anger.
"HE DIDN'T SEND US LADY. SCAR DID, GOT IT? HE'S GONE! WE WERE JUST DOING A THOROUGH JOB. YOU CAN GUARANTEE WE WON'T BE SEEING YOU EVER AGAIN!" I quickly flipped her over, jumping up and power walking off.
"Fine! Good riddance." I snapped after him, getting up and brushing myself off. I decided to go back to the dorm and just sit. Sit and mull this crap over.
What you might have missed: I was brought to the branch, made peace with my parents, I'm now working for them AND Scar, and now I'm in town, under surveillance but a little free, going to but some food.
No. I couldn't stand sitting. I grabbed my coat and swept outside. I couldn't stand this dorm right now. Maybe some food would help clear my mind.
*I was stopping at an outside submarine place, waiting in line for my order to be taken. God, lines were slow.*
I walked towards the outdoor restaurant near the school that I went to to get away from people and just kinda hang out and eat. I was almost there but stopped, my foot hanging in the air. 'Felix.' I thought, cocking my head at the sight of him. I took a slow step backwards, unsure of what to do.
*I finally reached the resturant, ordering my food quickly. The line was quicjly filling up behind me. I ordered a BLT without the tomato, and a large Cherry Coke. I slowly took my food and backed out of the line, un-aware of Anjali anywhere near the area. I went to go sit in a big tree in the park, right across the street.*
'Oh god he's turning around.' I did not want to interact with Felix under any circumstances. I looked around frantically for a place to run to. I saw a big tree and ran towards it, climbing quickly so I was high up.
*I saw a teenage girl going towards the tree I wanted. Crap.. I thought, watching her climb. Wait.. Crap.. Crap! It was Anjali. I couldn't face her, she'd tear me to pieces. I, pretending pretty good, took a detour around a park bench to go to a different tree.*
I breathed out a sigh, watching Felix walk away. Something flared up in the back of my mind as I watched him sit down. Why was I cowering up in a tree from one of the many people I hated at this particular moment? I sat thinking for a moment, trying to figure out how to approach this.
*I opened my water bottle and took a sip out of it. I was trying not to make my ears perk up as to listen for any ongoing noises or someone descending towards me. For all I knew, she still hadn't left the tree. I was now suddenly feeling, not hungry...*
I looked over at my hands which had white-knuckled onto the branches of the tree. If I didn't do anything, this moment would haunt me for the rest of my life. I walked silently over the stretch of grass between the tree and the bench. My boots made no sound when I jumped out of the tree or walked over to the bench. I stopped a good 5 or 6 feet away from the back, clearing my throat.
*Heh. Good thing my ears were so sharp. I hadn't turned, or really moved. I decided to get up and walk towards the sub place, opening up my sub, "This has hot peppers on it. I didn't order those." I lied, just to get away.
I rolled my eyes and followed Felix. "Hey! Psycho dude with no hot peppers!" I snapped, my arms crossed.
*I ignored her as the guy nodded, "I'm sorry sir." I replied back, "It's ok, I'll just give it back, I'm not that hungry anyway..." I replied, as the guy shrugged, "Would you like your money back or a free coke?" "Free coke." I responded as we traded. I started fast walking towards an alleyway I knew how to get past.*
I rushed after him, in complete stealth mode. I grabbed his shoulder with force enacted by adrenaline. "Stop being such a pu--girl and running away from problems YOU causes." I growled.
*I had been waiting to yell at her for ages, and now since were not together, why not? "Maybe I wasn't running away. Possibly avoiding for the better? There's a reason I left, not just to come back and get yelled at or apologize, if that's what your looking for. Your the one who is now looking to attack me."
"So what?! Sometimes it's best talk through issues like these. Running off or 'avoiding for the better' is not always the way to go!" I snapped, making all sorts of hand motions and things along with my words. "Hm...Maybe, just maybe, it's good that you left! Maybe I shouldn't have even bothered getting all hung about it. I shouldn't have ever cared."
"You don't understand why I left!" I shouted at her, "You would never understand even if I explained ALL of it to you! Step by step. You wouldn't understand the measures I AM taking to protect you, how I could REALLY get myself killed, just for you. Not shot, or knifed or being passed out, but Killed, never to be seen or heard from again, and it's all for YOU!" I involunteerily had tears in my eyes. I turned to walk away.
"I'm not an ignorant little girl! You can't hide things like that from me! You know what I've been through." I replied simply, my eyes narrowing, no mercy coming to mind.
"Anjali, I can't."I said softly, "They've alrady gotten to you, if I told you anything important, it'd be sent straight to them, and then I'd be killed for sure, and so would you. Anyway, Ace is already ordered to do whatever it take to get to you. Rape, marriage, magical brownies, whatever." I had already said too much info, my cover was blown.
"Whatever. If they're gonna be any secrets at all...I'm just...Done even though you already gave up on me." I replied, sighing and walking away.
"Just don't forget I'm trying to save you."I called, wishing I could tell her that I hated hurting her and all this undecover work sucked. "I'm sorry."I called, though I didn't think she could hear me, she cold.
I pretended not to hear Felix, keeping my head down and pulling up sweatshirt sleeves over my hands despite the hot weather. I just wanted to go home.
*I wanted to run after her, kiss her, tell her everything, apologize, buy her anything she has ever wanted. Promise to never, ever leave and stand by her side. It felt as if my thoughts were leavng my head an into the breeze, and I had felt this sensation before. I stood my ground.*
I walked along, earbuds in, listening to my iPod. I looked up to see Anjali up ahead and glanced back to see Felix standing, looking grim. I shrugged, following a good amount of distance from Anjali.
To make a long story short-- ish.
Anjali started hating on Ace but then she passed out. He picked her up and brought her to a place where Felix's crazy, mad parents were since he was working for them. Felix, who was trying to sleep in the warehouse, got kidknapped and beaten almost to death. Ace brought Anjali into the room where Felix and his parents were and she vowed to get married to Ace as long as Felix lived. They had this very long, "DON'T DO IT!" "I'M GONNA DO IT" thing and then Felix was carried away. Later on they talked and Felix admitted that he knew this ending was to happen because Phoenix and him met a future reader. They thought they had chosen a different path, though he eventually realized that he didn't and he was selfish. Annyoed, never wanting to see Felix again, Anjali left DUN DUN DUN and Felix wrote this big long paragraph that Julia willpost when she posts as Anjali that he left for her and it will get all dramatic at Ace and Anjali's wedding, oh, and Felix DIED, HE DIED. But his soul went into a 15 year old kid who was about to die but didn't. YAY, so techicnally he is alive. But when Anjali and the others eventually realize that he is this kid (strange enough) they have to seek the help of the future reader to get Felix back as Felix, restoring his life that he's lost like 3 times by now. COMES BACK TO LIFE DUN DUN DUNNN! Though I don't know what will happen to Anjali at that point if she'll be forgiving or not, but that's all up to Julia.. Hmmmpf. I don't think she'll tell me. So yeah, not it's the morning of the wedding. YAYAYAYAYA.
I spun around in front of the mirror, putting all my will power into enjoying this day as much as I could. Yes, I had lost Felix and yeah it was a real knife in the back to hear the truth but I needed to move on. A small slip of paper fluttered to the floor and I stooped to pick it up. It was in Felix's scrawly handwriting and I shook my head and sighed.
'We met a future reader. She ruined my life, bit I'm not sure Phoenix's. I thought we had picked the one that was less fun and easier. I guess I was wrong because the sacrifices she talked about, I didn't understand, and lost the best thing that had ever happened. She deserves Ace because he would care for her better than I ever would. It's funny. I warned her but she didn't listen. I was too selfish. When I get sent to the bottom of Hell I will never again forgive myself. I'll sit in a lonely pit of embers, not hurting me as much as I've hurt myself and overall, others. I guess it was good that I told her the truth and she was the last face I saw. I'll hold onto that. Forever and ever. Bye Life. Peace out home skili.'
I shook my head again and tucked the note into my bag and put the bag up on a shelf. It was time for the whole big wedding thing. I took a deep breath and followed Felix's mom to...somewhere.
*I craned my neck, "Big show out.. Aww, my sons even here." I waved at Phoenix who was sitting, his hair actually BLACK! His natural color. "Why did he dye his hair?" I wondered aloud. Shannox was also there, she always loved Anjali. Then there was a... scraggly old lady in the front. Who was she?*
I grinned from the altar, my white hair in it's usual state; askew. My pale skin and light hair stood out majorly against the black of the tux. Anjali's black hair stood out on the white dress which complemented everything. This was quite the day. Not good, not bad. Just a day.
*I couldn't even look at Ace. Really, could you blame me? I noticed the scraggly old woman. No. It couldn't have been her, but yet it was. I slouched in my seat-- horribly enough it had to be RIGHT next to the isle. I couldn't leave though. Not with the lady here.*
I smiled warmly back. I was starting to have wild impulses of foreboding in the back of my mind but I kept them there. I made sure this wasn't gonna be fancy and it was going to be quick since it was just plain awkward at this point. This wasn't one of my favorite day in my life so I summarize is hastily. I did the whole walking down the isle thing, all the smiling between me and Ace and all. I got there and we did all the long and droning talking. Eventually, we got to the I Dos and I was tempted to say I Don't but I made a deal which had been broken but what else did I have to do? Me and Ace did the whole kissing thing which is honestly my least favorite part looking back. At that, everyone departed to the food.
*I stood off in the distance, feeling oddly outplaced. My black hair shining. I decided with Felix gone, I guess I'd have to act more mature. I was now depressed also. My eyes-- now sharp instead of playful, scanned the area.*
*I stood awkwardly with the fortune teller/ future reader. Why had she brought me here? I had not known one person besides her. What did it mean?*
"Wassup with you?" I asked, smoothing down the folds of the dress as I walked over to Phoenix. I felt like I stood out and it was starting to make me self conscious. I knew what was up with Phoenix but I didn't want to admit it know the blame sat largely on me and that emotional surge wouldn't be fun.
"I decided to stop fooling around. I'm thinking about the upcoming Standstill maybe getting Jason and Stormy to come back, maybe find Tommy or Violet. But now I'm not so sure what I am to do or what others would think, honestly." I told her straight, my eyes sharp as I analyzed her face, "Other than that my brother is dead, my parents made you marry some guy, I'm probably gonna be forced to make some big speech and then pretend to feel happy and for what? Nothing."
"Well, honestly Phoenix, first of all, I won't make you say any sort of speech. It's nothing fancy, I think we're just gonna depart and call it done. Anyway, well...It's there call if they want to come back or not and I think we might be on our own if even want to tolerate me to any extent anymore." I said flatly, running my fingers through my hair, finding it hard to concentrate. "I think we're all lost at this point, Phoenix to put it simply."
"Lost is right." I said, narrowing my eyes. "I don't want to ruin this rainy parade even more, but Felix never ment to hurt you, period. He did everything he could to protect you and I mean everything, he would have killed my if I ever tried to do anything to you, and if you think for one moment he didn't think everything was about you, your wrong, and now he'd dead. Just keep that in mind. And let me tell you, he's here right now, this instant. And though you won't know who it is, and he doesn't know he's Felix, deep down, he's watching, don't forget that." I smiled a devious smile, "Never forget, he's always here." and with that, I simply walked away, taking a white balloon with me.
I gnawed on my bottom lip thoughtfully and fearfully. I felt uber guilty right now and I was ready to go home. I exchanged looks with Ace from across the room and I could tell he was just as worn as I was. I sighed and walked off to the changing room and changing into my jeans, boots, tee, and jacket. I couldn't face anyone right now so I picked up my bag and went out to my truck. As I started it up, I thought about how old it was and how it had just sat in the background of all these scenes in my life. If cars had eyes, this one would be freaking scarred for life. I laughed to myself and started driving to the one place that could suffice my inner turmoil at the moments; the graveyard.
"Wait!" I called in a snarled voice to the wedding girl, hobbiling over to her truck, "You do not want to go there. His spirits not there!" she gaped from running.
"Who are crazy old lady that's freaking me out right now?" I asked, a bit agitated.
"When he died, he went into the body of another kid-- his soul, I mean. The kid was about to die, Luke's soul went to heaven while Felix's replaced it. He's still alive-- well, not as Felix, but as Luke, but that's not the point!"
"That really doesn't help me solve any issues I'm having right now. I need a quiet place to go, spirit or not; it's his grave." I said, getting jumpy. "I'll keep that in mind."
"That boy over there," I said, pointing to a tall, blonde haired boy who was about 15 or 16, "Is Felix. Just, don't forget that." she said, hobbiling away towards Luke, who was sending strong emotions of curiousity and confusion.
"Um...Okay. Thanks." I really wasn't sure if I should believe her or not but I made sure I imprinted the boy's appearance in my mind and then drove away, still the same destination in mind.
"MY NAMES EVA!" I called, "I'M THE FORTUNE TELLER THAT GAVE FELIX AND PHOENIX THEIR FORTUNES!" I screamed after her, knowing I would be heard.
Oh. That helps. She's the one that ruined Felix and Phoenix's lives. Yeah, that revs up my trust to one hundred percent!
*I had this sensing feeling that I wanted to fallow the truck the was driving away, and then I fell onto the ground in agony, feeling the pain (when Felix was beaten) of the flashback. I didn't scream, but I was shaking, feeling Eva standing over me, sad.*
I glanced back to see the boy and Eva doing something back there. The boy looked like he was in pain and I wanted to go help but I couldn't quite bring myself to do so. I was almost there anyway.
*Heh, I could feel her coming. I already had dissapeared to Felix's 'grave,' for some peace and quiet, but since I know he's a live, it's not too worth it. Oh well. I had thought, putting down the box I had found in his dorm. No one had ever seen this special box, I could tell, but in it were pictures, his dagger, somethings I didn't even know were special to him, and a nice, bright and shiny ring. It was truly beautiful. Oh well, no one to give it to now. I thought, closing the box and leaving it by the grave so I could let Anjali get at it as I left.*
I pulled into the church parking lot and wandered over to the graveyard. I pulled my sweatshirt more tightly around me as a chill shot up my spine. I knew where the grave was but I took my time getting there, strolling among the dead and thinking. Such a great thing to do on your wedding day, eh? I was almost there when a name caught my eye; 'Janet Smithers', my mother.
*I watched from my car, sipping from a bottle of coke. This was gonna be interesting. Too bad I couldn't really hear.*
I wanted so bad my whole life to kill my mother myself and piss on her grave. Of course, neither of those things was going to happen today. I narrowed my eyes and I was tempted to kick over the headstone jam it into her dead skull. All I did was stand there though. All these things going through my head. I finally decided to take out my knife and etch something of my own into the stone. 'May Heaven except sluts just as Earth does.' With that, I strolled away to my original goal.
*I took out binoculars-- heh, and watched Anjali sketch the words into her mothers headstone. I laughed, loudly.*
When I heard the laughter I automatically knew who it was and I honestly didn't give a crap. I had no more motivation to be here anymore since I had worked off most of the anger and stress at the moment so I weaved back around to my truck and nodded to Phoenix. "Having a fun time now, are we?"
"I'm sorry." I say, smiling. "But you have to go back." It faded to a serious note. "There's something there for you."
I lifted an eyebrow, cocking my head. "A present? At a grave? That's not trippy." I muttered, turning back around.
"I found it in his dorm." I ignored her, calling after her. "I think you should keep it." I started my engine up and backed of the lot.
I sighed and went back, purposely not looking at my mother's grave this time. At Felix's, there was a small box. I went over and picked it up gingerly. I opened it see old rusty daggers, frayed papers, pictures, and on top of it all...a ring.
I was dying. I could feel it. My soul leaving. "You aren't dying." I heard Eva say. I screamed. "Your soul it just leaving for a short while." And I passed out. (This weird thing's gonna happen where Felix's soul leaves Luke's body and kinda talks to Anjali through her mind.)
Pain suddenly seared through my mind and I almost dropped the box. I let out a little moan and stumbled back towards my truck and jumped in. It felt almost as if someone was trying to push there way into my mind with great difficulty.
This was weird. I was having memories of mine, some kid named Luke, and people from times before. WTH? Where was my body? I was confused. Was I shot? I couldn't be dead...Why was I looking at..my grave!?!? Now the thoughts came rushing back, Eva explained to Like what his soul was or something. She was letting my talk to Anjali.
Strange feelings of confusion and realization then rushed in, making it quite hard to think straight let alone drive. I did though, I needed to get home and work through this.
Holy crap. This was strange but I guess since I'll forever and always be Luke I should tell her how much I hate myself 'n' stuff. I've gotten too many chances.
That's when it got bad. I was almost home when a voice started talking about telling much needed truths and how much he regretted hurting me the way he did. When I could work through all of the masses of thoughts, I realized it was Felix somehow talking to me. With the last ounces of energy I had, I grabbed the box, stumbled into my dorm and passed out.
She was sleeping. That was a plus. In her dream I showed her just how much I cared and what I did and didn't say and what I did to protect her. Then. I was forced to leave the lil boys body.
"Felix," I spoke in my dreams. "I know you saw me as self-sufficient and I wasn't worth numerous precautions so why couldn't you say anything earlier or when you were still alive?"
I knocked on Anjali's door, opening it. "He loved you, that's why he didn't tell you--say half the things he wanted to." I answered, plopping down onto a chair.
Eva's voice startled me awake and I shook my head. "But if he had told me earlier on about you and all this crap, it could have been addressed and we wouldn't be in such a big mess." I retorted.
"You would have the same reaction. Trust Me. I know." I laughed, grinning a yellow toothed smile. "Men only keep things from women because they're ashamed and are afraid to hurt their woman." I shrugged.
"I still think it could have been different." I murmured sadly, blinking away tears and looking down at my hands.
"Let me ask you a question." I murmured. "Would you like to know hoe life would have been if Felix hadn't found you?"
"Sure, why not?" I replied, sitting back.
I closed my eyes, fingers twitching. "Oh dear..." I murmured. "Ah." I said a few times. "Interesting." I opened my eyes, "You would have not lied well enough when the StandStill had come undone. They were to take you all to jail where you would have met Rock. You'd have just missed Felix and Phoenix." I stopped, collecting the next bit of info. "You would have been stuck there...until they called...Your mother." She glared through her eyelids. "You would have taken the abuse until Ryuu came to save you. After that, you set off into a state of depression on your mission...and you would have died at the same ago of 16 because your mother shot you." I said, grimly, "And all those times, you were seconds from missing the Bolt twins and a different life." I opened my eyes. "You were born for the life of pain, misery and suffering. You all were. That's why you're all part of the T.F."
I glared, closing my eyes and trying to keep down the annoyance that had flooded through me just now. "Can you tell me anything about my present future or is that all sh*t too?" I asked, my voice stiff.
"Ace will do something unpredictable. Felix will come back. But you won't recognize his personality. You won't like it. But if you decide that you love him, you will be able to change it back."
"Nothing is set in stone." Was all I could say. I just got up and shook my head. "Just...go. I need to be left alone."
"Ah. But that's where you're wrong my dear. Everything is set in stone." I smiled, showing her I knew what she'd pick and I traveled out.
That did it. As she left, I looked around the dorm frantically, a crazy light in my eye. I spotted the gleam I was looking for. I ran for the knife and grabbed it and turned it towards me, the tip resting right over the left side of my chest. I was about to follow through when someone crashed into the dorm and grabbed me with strong arms, pulling the knife away and grabbing my wrists with great force. "Anjali!" Was the last thing I heard before I passed out in Ace's arms, nothing left to do.
I smiled, hearing the ruckus behind me. This was gonna be an interesting life.
I paced madly around the living area of the dorm, Anjali lying unconscious on the couch, her breathing uneven and a bit of dried blood on her jacket. She had scathed herself with the knife in the rush of the whole thing but I had patched her up. What had happened to propel to her to do this?
Pain was all I felt. Emotional and physical. Who had saved me from one of my best actions in my life?
"Yeah. We bought em a house." I said to Jon on the phone. "Good." he replied. "That fortune teller's getting in our way." I hissed, scowling. "I agree...But this should be interesting on how it plays out." "Correct you are." I heard a voice behind me. Phoenix. Then there was a shot and Jane Bolt's son just killed her.
I roused and automatically jumped up, almost falling over, going for the knife again. Ace caught me and restrained me with a steel grip. "LET GO!" I screeched through my tears. "Anjali," he said quietly, "You need to calm down. You still have things to live for. You can't leave us now." "LIAR!" I hissed. "I can't stand this anymore."
I sat down on a park bench, clutching it. I had killed a soul that was meant to be killed. Now the one who wasn't meant to die is coming back. I heard Eva walking down the street towards me. "His grave will be erased. He will come back, but you have made a sacrifice of Luke." she said. I nodded, "I know. and with that, they sat next to each other. I closed my eyes as Eva hummed. Magic was real, in the StandStill world. I could feel it. Another sacrifice. As Felix appeared before me, time had stopped and the StandStill was brought back.
"Felix is just about gone, Jason and Stormy ran off, Phoenix and Brenden can't face me anymore and I can't look at you the same way since we were forced to be together. I WANT OUT!" I said rapidly, struggling the whole time.
I looked at my brother, confused. "I was dead..." "We brought you back!" Phoenix smiled. "Great..." I replied, rolling my eyes. "Let's go get some food. Tommy and the others are in town and meeting us at the bagel place." I shrugged. "Sounds good."
"You know that's not true." I murmured, tightening my grip. "Everyone is still looking out for you and--" I broke off as I was interrupted. "NO! I'm a burden to everyone apparently as well as myself. Let me go!" Anjali snapped.
We walked towards the bagel shop and I felt my similar surroundings. I saw Tommy standing outside his car. I smiled, nice to see him. "Sup!?" he called. They all knew I died, they just wouldn't admit it."
"You're not a burden, Anjali. Not to anyone, not to me. You need to stop thinking that. We all need you. Everything would fall apart if you we're gone. I'm not lying." I said soothingly, Anjali glaring at me silently.
I called Anjali's cell and went straight to voicemail. "Hey. I...um know you're a little emotional right now but um. Felix came back from the dead. I'm sure you don't want to see him. Quite frankly...I'm not sure about Felix's state of mind. I think something happened..." In the background you could hear "Who ya talking to?" "Order of fries?" I sighed. "The point is I'd just thought I'd let you know." End of message.
I looked up at Ace, my eyes teary. "Let me go. I'm not going to grab the knife." I said sincerely. After a moment, Ace loosened his grip and jumped up and retrieved my phone. I listened to the voicemail and sighed. "I'm going for a walk, wanna come?" Ace nodded. I opened the door and exited, blood still crusted to the front of my shirt.
We sat at a table and I ate a bagel. It was good because it was toasted and had chicken and stuff in it. "So Tommy. You and Violet married yet?" I joked. "No...She's out in Colorado somewhere helpin train timefighters since you the StandStill is back." "Ah." Phoenix and I both said together.
I walked beside Ace down the street, getting weird glances due to the blood but I didn't care. I just needed to cool down. I found myself looking out for sharp objects when my mind wandered. I'd snap back to attention as quickly as possible when this happened only to have it happen again.
I looked out the window ever so slightly, Guess who I saw? It really wasn't a big surprise. I felt the others look out and you saw recognition on Tommy's face, but Felix. It was like he didn't see anyone he had ever knew before in his life.
I felt Felix's presence nearby and that set off a mental trigger. My eyes sharpened and I remembered the emergency dagger I hid inside my coat. I grabbed it and blindly slashed at my own arm, hearing Ace yell and try to grab me but I couldn't hear anything save the rush of blood in my ears.
Tommy and I rushed out of the bagel shop and started trying to help stop the bleeding. It took a few minutes and when I had the chance to look back, I saw a look of pure calmness and a little confusion on Felix's face as he sipped his cherry coke.
Everything was all just a blur of color. The crimson of blood, the sheet whit of skin...I wasn't completely with it anymore at the moment.
I wrapped my sweatshirt around her arm, "It doesn't look too deep at all. If anything she might need stitches, but I think it bled a lot for its small size. It may heal on its own." I shrugged.
I passed out, hearing murmurs of voices. How long would this go on?
"What made her want to do that?" I asked, feeling as if she was my sister- mine as well have been.
"I have no idea." I muttered, scratching my head. "She just...did it."
"Most likely." I said with a nod.
"Well... I'm not sure what you want to do with your wife, let her see him or not, but I guess it's not really your choice.." I shrugged. Tommy picked her up and started towards the bagel shop, "She'll needs some-place to sit and eat if anything." he explained.
"It doesn't matter to me. It's best just to let her do what she thinks is best at the moment or who the people know her's best judgement." I replied, backing off a bit.
*I shrugged, fallowing Tommy into the bagel place that was half-empty. Tommy sat her onto a booth next to ours, and I saw Felix looking at her arm, "It should heal by itself." he said to Tommy, confirming what he said. He didn't look as if he was talking about is girlfriend/ex-girlfriend, more like a patient.*
"Ugh..." I moaned, putting a hand to my forehead and sitting up. I opened my eyes slowly and looked around. At the sight of Felix, I jumped, ready to run off.
*I grabbed her arm, "Dont want to do that," I said with a smile I had used before, what felt like ages ago. "You'll get a concussion."I pushed her down to her seat, and went to sit in to the booth saddled next to it, sipping out of my coke bottle nosily. Tommy turned towards Anjali, "You arm won't need stitches, you'll be fine but you lost a lot of blood, he's right about the concussion."
"I really don't care at this point and I would rather have a concussion then sit at this damn booth." I growled, white-knuckling on the edge of the table.
*I could see Felix roll his eyes and he got up to sit in the back corner, going to eat his sandwich there. I guess he understood, but he was still looking at Anjali with a scowl... It was kind of weird, like he never did love her, or like a perfectly seeing man going blind. It was strange, but I stopped looking at him and put my attention towards Anjali, "If you knew he was here, why did you come..."I hissed under my breath. "Well, if you want to die, be my guest, but I'm afraid you'd have to go through us before you die." I shruggd.
"I didn't know you guys were gonna be here and I needed to get out of that dorm before I went at myself with a knife again." I snapped, glaring coldly. "That crazy old lady is driving me to the point of insanity."
*I shrugged, "She knew your future, wanted to tell you, but didn't. WOW! Makes you want to kill yourself."I said, sarcastically. "Listen, killing yourself don't solve problems, honey." Tommy looked at me as in to say, 'Shut-up!' and I scowled, walking towards the other booth as he sat across from her.
"Haha she did tell me my future and, unlike you, I'm fine with not knowing my life's story and finding out myself. I'm not ignorant and stupid." I snapped, jabbing a finger at Phoenix. "At this point, offing myself would solve everything/"
"She told you what your future would have been. She vaguely told you about what your future is going to be." I corrected. "Felix never actually tried to off himself, or don't you remember? He's had enough freaking crap in his life, and unlike you, he dealt with it, so I wouldn't complain!" I snapped.
"Oh like I haven't dealt with any crap in my life." I scoffed, my eyes narrowing in pure anger. "I was thrown out of my house when I was five and I'm still living today, correct? Oh and I've had to put up with YOU and everyone else in this damn world so don't tell be I don't put up with crap ON A DAILY BASIS."
"You aren't pleasant, are you?" I asked, eyes glinting as I broke their fight.
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?!" I said, quite flustered at this point and now confused.
"Your not very bright either.." I shrugged, sipping out of the coke bottle.
"I give up on you guys." I said, defeated. I shook my head and walked out.
*I got confused glances and some glares and I shrugged, "Peace out, Home Skili." I called.
"What was that about?" I asked, walking into the bagel shop, glancing back at Anjali whom was storming out.
"Longgggg story. You've missed out on a lot." I say, going into a quiet detailed story about what has happened.
"Why are you letting her just walk out then? She's just gonna go for another attempted suicide." I pointed out. "She's quite stubborn when it comes to killing."
"Ace is out there..."I said through closed teeth.
"Your point?" I said, cocking my head and crossing my arms. "Ace can't handle full force, killing, Anjali. No one can." I shook my head, memories flying through my head.
"You should go talk to her..."I shrugged.
I was flustered, stomping out right past Ace, not registering him at all. Apparently, when you come back from the dead, you turn into a gigantic asshole. I didn't know where I was going, just storming off to some unknown place.
I looked out the window after Anjali and I sighed. "You know what? Your tactic may be better." I sighed, plopping down in a booth.
"Ehhh.... I don't think soooooo..."I said, hoping she didn't have that dagger with her. "It only works for me."
"I can only do so much." I muttered, shaking my head. "Wait, didn't she just pass out and now she's walking off after bleeding that much? Isn't that bad?"
My head was starting to swim and I was getting a bit dizzy. I leaned against a tree and sucked in my breath. I scrambled up the tree and perched up on a branch, leaning against the trunk. I blinked slowly, trying to regain my composure. I felt something poke my in the side and I looked down to see the gleam of my dagger in my inside jacket pocket. I didn't have enough energy to take it or anything so I just sat, breathing hard and trying to calm down.
"Yepp."I replied, sipping my Dr. Pepper.
"Hm...Alright. I guess it's best to let her wander around, not completely conscious and with a pointy object. THAT'S A GREAT IDEA!" I replied, sarcasm searing through the whole thing.
*I stood up, "I'm gonna go for a walk.." I decided, leaving the building.
"Have fun," I called after Felix, drumming my fingers on the table.
"Yep!" I called.
Now the world was starting to spin. That couldn't be good. Had I inadvertently gotten high or something? What the hell was going on? Nausea was starting to gnaw at me and I had to hang onto the branch to stay in the tree.
*I walked a few blocks, thinking about all this stuff. What had I seen in her? She made me die, like four times. Speaking of, saw Anjali sitting in a tree, blood rushing out of her wound were the t-shirt was hanging off. "Crap." I muttered, fast walking towards the tree and climbing it with ease, deciding that I'd have to tie the shirt around it again.*
"Oh great it's you." I said through gritted teeth, my vision blurry. I wanted to yank my arm away from Felix but I couldn't. I really couldn't do anything.
"Just shut-up, I'm trying to work." I scowled, looking at her arm, "You opened it farther. Great job." I said with a hint of sarcasim, "This t-shirt is wrecked." I said, taking my shirt off and wrapping it around her arm, trying to stop the bleeding.
"Hm, maybe if you hadn't acted the way you did or Phoenix, this wouldn't have happened." I replied, keeping my voice steady since I would pass out if I got to worked up.
"I was only speaking what was on my mind and I can't control what Phoenix says, sorry we hurt your feelings." I picked her up and hopped out of the tree, lightly.
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"I just spoke what I was thinking, and I can't control what Phoenix says..." I picked her up off the branched and jumped down from the tree, easily.
"There's a time and a place." I muttered, stiffening a bit as Felix picked me up.
*I rolled my eyes. We were blocks away and I could sense she was still bleeding, "Do you wanna go back to your husband and the others or will you let me take you to the ER so you don't bleed to death?" I asked, trying not to growl at the word husband.
"ER please." I said, sounding more desperate than intended. I really did want to see the others at this point, especially Ace.
"Alright." I smiled, turning down Howard drive. "I would get a cab but...." I shrugged, continuing to walk at a leisurely pace.
"Eh. Cabs are usually stinky and driven by creepos." I replied, looking around, my vision still swimming but I really didn't care.
"True, true." I agreed, turning on Colbart rd. We were still a few blocks away. "So."
"So indeed." I sighed, my mind was all fuzzy so I was exactly a social butterfly at the moment if I was at all. "So...How was bein dead for awhile? Fun?"
*I laughed, "Not so fun. I wasn't exactly dead, but I guess that's not the point." Shrugging, I started into a light jog.
"So you were dead, but not quite dead." I said, trying to think this through. "You're either dead or not...I really don't grasp this concept."
"It's all about souls. I saved this kids life, I guess. Since my soul didn't go to hell, I didn't die." I tried to explain.
"Does that mean the kid is dead now?" I asked grimly after some thought.
"I'm... not sure what happened to him."I admitted, getting closer to the hospital. "....how's being married?" I asked, suddenly, but kept my pace.
"Well that's kinda sad but who knows." I said, thinking for a moment before saying anything else. "It's hell."
"That's nice..."I said, smiling. "Does he treat you nice?"
"Yeah fine but I'm only...I think 17. I'm loosing track and I hardly know him so it isn't the most pleasant." I said thoughtfully, I hadn't really given the whole situation much thought lately.
*I laughed. I sounded like someone from the ghetto, 'HE TREAT YA IGHT?' "Yeah, I guess it wouldn't be.."
"Pleh." I said simply, tilting my head back to look up at Felix curiously. "How do you manage to 'come magically back to life' anyway?"
"I have no freaking idea, but I guess it's possible." I shrugged, knowing we were one block away.
"Hm. That's scientific." I said with a weak shrug, looking up at the gray sky.
"It's gonna rain." I commented, getting into a slower place as the Hospital came into view.
"Yep." I replied simply, looking over at the hospital. "This is gonna be fun."
"Sure it." I said, reaching the door and opening it, looking for my fav. doctor.
I automatically started getting jumpy since I really didn't like hospitals. Of course, that didn't help the state my mind was in but I really couldn't help automatic mental clicks.
"Ah. What can I do for you today?" I asked, smiling. But there was something in the glint of Felix's eye, and the seemingly state of Anjali's mind that doubted things were cool between them. "Cut herself," Felix explained, "She needs stitches."
I wanted to say something but I couldn't. I was really afraid I was gonna pass out and I didn't want to do that since it made me look like a total woos and I was in a hospital.
*Doctor Henry led us into a room where I sat Anjali onto the bed, intending on leaving.*
"Hey." I managed, loosely grabbing Felix's wrist. "Where are going? I despise this place and really don't want to be here alone."
*I shrugged, "I just thought you didn't want me here." "I'm going to give you some pain stuff so you won't feel anything.." Doctor Henry said, trailing. I knew what he was gonna say. 'you won't feel anything.... but you may say some things you never wanted to tell people.' Trust me. I knew.
"Nah why would I think that." I said, smiling weakly, kind of zoning out Doctor Henry. I knew I got the pain med but didn't know about side effects.
"Um... no answer." I replied, being pulled towards a chair at the side of the bed.
"You know what, I wasn't really that angry at you earlier." I pointed out, slurring a bit as the Doctor started stitching. "It was just scary news to hear and anger was the only output for me."
"Really?" I asked, knowing this was alllllllll true, and I was gonna enjoy every second of it.
"Yep!" I said, sounding almost eager to share the information. "It was weird to think you just about came searching for me. And I was kinda pissed since it was all for an awesome life then I thought hey, I was part of this 'awesome life' so it can't be that big a deal." I just kept on talking and talking getting myself in bigger crap. "It was just kind bad you didn't tell me about the whole giant blow-up-in-your-face thing."
"Eh. I'm sorry?" I replied, eyeing the Doctor as in to say, 'Slow down the stitches.'
"The only thing I was kinda pissed about was you not actually saying anything about meeting that creepy old lady and all." I stammered on, trying to think through this sensibly and failing. "Honestly, I don't care at this point since you actually agreed to stay which you seem to hate me now so that doesn't make sense."
"When was I supposed to tell you?" I questioned. "I don't hate you.." I was confused with my feelings, I guess I just didn't like her.
"I have no idea. That's always where I get caught up and confused whenever I try to think about it." I said, my gaze narrowing as I tried to think. "Well, you obviously don't like me the way you did at one point. I guess it's best."
"Ah." I say, my eyes narrowing, "I don't really think its for the best." But I don't know. I looked up at Henry who still had like 20 stitches to go.
"You're acting like it." I pointed out, starting to realize very slowly that this procedure was taking longer than necessary.
"I don't really know how I'm acting or what I'm feeling.." I say, honestly. "If I did, you'd be the first to know."
"Whatever you say." I murmured, observing my hand. "You were just acting kinda like a jerk earlier, that's all. Maybe I was too."
"We all act like a jerk once in a while." I shrugged, starting to stand up as Doc. Henry had 3 more to do. It seemed as if he gave her more than necessary. She should be honest for another 30-45 minutes.
"Eh that's true but it's been worse lately." I said thoughtfully. "It's almost like I can't control weird clicks in my mind anymore. It's...Weird.
"That's interesting." I say, smiling, "So... what do you think about Ace?"
"He's pretty good guy and all. He's got good looks, nice angular face. But he's a bit clingy though. I hardly know so it's hard to judge." I went on. I was gonna pay for this later.
"What do you think about.... Phoenix?" I questioned.
I blinked slowly, thinking over the question. "I see him as almost a brother type figure. He's supportive and all but can still act like a complete ass and argue with me to a point where I almost end up passing out in the middle of a park." I replied, thinking it through.
"Ah. I think he'd like that description.." I smiled, "So. Whatcha think about me?"
There was a good moment or two of silence before I actually reply. "Well, when I first saw you, I thought you were the most annoying and pompous person I would ever meet." I started, pausing. "That still sticks, but only to a certain extent. The rest, is quite the opposite." I didn't know how else to phrase it so...
"Interesting...." I didn't smile, but I felt like it. "Ok, time to go."I say, realizing that the Doc. had wrapped her stitches. "Can you walk?"
I experimentally put one foot to the ground then the other. I took an unsteady step and nodded. "Just about." I replied.
*I put my arm under her arm and opened the door, "You look a little too woosy."
"Whatever you say." I said with a nod, leaning against Felix for support.
*It felt right, but at the same point, not. I led out the door and to the desk, "Hey Nancy." I nodded and she smiled as I walked towards the door.
"Where exactly are we planning on going?" I asked, looking around, still sort of dazed but starting to get out of it.
"I'm not totally sure. Where do you wanna go?" I asked.
"Home I guess. Back to my dorm I mean, not that house." I answered, referring to that house Felix's parents had bought for me and Ace. I wasn't, under any circumstances, gonna step foot in there.
"Ok." I shrugged, "Can you walk all the way there?"
"Um...I don't think so. I'm still a bit dizzy." I replied, testing my feet a bit.
"Crap, cabs are on strike, anyway." I muttered, swinging her into my arms and starting into a jog.
I grinned and leaned against Felix, looking up at the still gray sky thoughtfully. "Cabs are stinky anyway." I added.
*I still had another 15 minutes of honesty on my hands.. What to ask, what to ask. "You've said that already," I reminded her.
"I did? Eh now I'm loosing track of my mind altogether. I'm turning into an old lady with Alzheimers." I replied, scratching my head.
"Nah. They usually forget more."I said, truthfully. "Do you loveee me?" I asked, hoping the medicine would last just as long for an honest answer. If not, I looked like an idiot. No biggee.
"Hm..." I thought for a moment, the meds making it a bit hard to think. "Yesss of couuurssee."
"Cool." I said, grinning as I jogged back down Hannagon st.
"Are we there yet?" I asked drowsily, starting to actually get my mind back to full function.
"Almost..." I replied, turning down the street that goes into the Private School area.
"Awesome." I said, looking around. "Hey, what exactly did the Doc give me?"
"What do you mean?" I asked, innocently. I walked up to the back-door that led up the stairs.
"I mean did he gave me anything that made me all loopy and say things I probably shouldn't have." I replied, getting a bit suspicious.
"I wouldn't say loopy."I couldn't help but snicker as I walked up the flights of stairs.
I glared. "I don't even want any idea of what I said." I muttered, actually quite scared of the wide variety of things that go through my mind on a daily basis and what could have been said.
"You told me a lot of truthful stuff..." I admitted, smiling a smile that was screaming, 'You should be terrified.'
"Oh god..." I said, putting a hand to my mouth. "Why...Just...Wow..."
*I continued on grinning as I fluttered up the stairs, "So. Pretty nasty cut." I say, hoping she won't ask questions on what she told me.
"Yep. Now I pity people I slice open a bit." I agreed, observing the stitching. "What questions did you contribute to my 'truth spilling?'"
*I shrugged, "Just what you thought of some conflicts, some people." as if it were nothing. I FINALLY reached her floor and started descending down the hallway.
"Who and what conflicts exactly?" I asked, my eyebrow raised and my gaze curious.
"It's not really important. I think your answers surprised me a little." I totally ignored the question as I reached her dorm, opening the door.
"Good or bad surprise exactly and of course it's important with that stupid grin on your face." I pressed.
"Good." I answered, closing the door behind me, "I think people would loveeee to hear what you think about them."
"Ha. I bet they would." I said with a grin, all my mental biographies coming to mind.
*I set her down onto one of the chairs, moving to go search the cabinets for Advil or Ibuprofen or pain reliever.
I thudded my head on the back of the chair, closing my eyes. I thought of all the possible things I could have said and was quite scared.
*I found some Advil in a cupboard and poured a glass of water. I set it down on the island, then going to move the small coffee table over next to her chair, putting the pill and the cup on it.*
"Thanks." I said absent-mindedly, picking up the cup and taking the pill quickly, still thinking.
*I took a dishtowel, wiping up the condensation that was on the table and then throwing it into the washing machine. I went back into the kitchen to take a can of Pepsi out of the fridge.*
"Can you at least tell me one thing, just one, that I said?" I asked, knowing it would all come back to bite me in the ass eventually but I still wanted to know.
"You like me more then Ace.." I smiled, opening the can and taking a sip. It wasn't as good as coke, but whatever.
"Well that's kinda a duh." I pointed out, drumming my fingers on the arm of the chair. "What else did I say?"
"You only said one."I pointed out, leaning against the island.(444)
"Come on that was a gimme." I pleaded. "Please?"
"What will you do for me?" I asked, smiling again.
"Depends on what exactly you want me to do." I answered, then regretting it.
"I'm too tired to think of anything good. You get the info for free, but you owe me." I decided after a moment, sipping the pepsi again.
"Fine." I replied, looking up expectantly, unsure of what exactly to expect.
"You basically told me you thought Ace was kinda cute, but overprotective and some other whack stuff. You said Phoenix was kind of like your brother though he's kind of..mean? You told me you hated me lying, and not telling you things. You said I was a total jerkface, as*hole, and that even though you still think that, there's a whole bunch of better feelings or something."I smiled, saving the best for last.
"Wow must sound uber emotional and psychopathic when I'm high." I muttered. "I guess it could have been worse..."
"Oh. You also said you looooovvveeeed me." I tapped my fingers lightly onto the island, knowing a grin was coming.
"Hm...I said that, did I?" I asked, keeping my composure. "And what was your reply?"
"Cool."I replied, "..but I could have said a lot more." As the thoughts came back to me that I had thought only mere minutes ago. How I knew it, was happy, a little guilty, ecstatic, and some other stuff.
"Cool." I repeated, thinking. "Interesting. Hm...what's your definition of 'a lot more?'" He had tortured me now I was attempting to do so back, whether it was working or not I didn't know.
"A few more words.." I said, simply, my can of pepsi almost empty."Why?"
"Just curious. That's all." I sighed, sitting back and closing my eyes again.
"Hmm." I replied, suddenly dying to know what she was thinking. I finished my can, rinsing it and then putting it in the recycling bin, then going to sit in the seat across from Anjali.*
I opened one eye for a moment to watch as Felix sat then closed it again, thinking about drifting off.
*She looked tired..and I probably over-stayed my welcome. I tried to get up quietly, but ended up banging against the chair, "Crap." I muttered.
"Wow you're quite the stealthy ninja." I said without moving or anything.
"You've got that right." I said, going over to the coffee table to pick up her empty glass of water and then refill it, placing it back after.*
I tapped my fingers lightly on the arms of the chair, thoughts fuzzily making there way through my mind. I wasn't really tired but it's not like I was full of energy at the moment.
*I stood there for a moment, trying to remember if I had brought anything important. Nah. I put one foot in-front of the other.*
"Hey." I said, breaking the silence reluctantly. I had question that I couldn't quite answer myself and wondered if Felix had any ideas. "What am I supposed to do with Ace? The deal was indeed broken."
*I shrugged, "You weren't legally married, Phoenix bribed the priest," I smiled, deciding it was time to leave.
"Okie dokie then." There was a long silence and I knew Felix was heading towards the door. When he passed by the chair, I managed to catch his hand and open my eyes. "Why exactly are you leaving?"
"I thought I had just about overstayed my welcome." I questioned, eyes confused.
I shook my head. "Of course not. Just sometimes I do that. Sit and think. It's not me telling you to leave." I replied, smiling.
"Ok?" I responded, going to sit on the floor next to her chair, slightly confused, going to sort out my thoughts.
"I..." I wasn't completely sure how to kick off this conversation. I wasn't even sure why I kept Felix from leaving. I just didn't want him to. It was weird how a few hours ago I hated every last bit of him (theoretically) and now I didn't want him to leave. But I still didn't have a conversation starter.
*Ok. So she hates me, she hates me not. Is she picking dandelions or something? I mean really, she could make up her mind. But why did I stay? Why didn't I just...leave?*
I picked at my finger nervously. What was I supposed to say? What did he expect me to say? Did he really mean it when he said he actually still liked me or was he just saying that because of what I said when I was on the med? How the heck did I get myself into this situation?
(This is funny cause it's just a common case of girlfriend/boyfriend stuff.)*Well. It was her turn to start a conversation, what was on her mind or whatever. I was actually interested in what she was gonna say.*
"Why did you ask me all those questions when I was on that med? I mean I know you did it purposely so you could tease me about it later on but..." I trailed, unsure of where that came from.
"I wanted to know the absolute, positive truth. No, 'Well..' or skipping over something that you didn't think that you should mention. I also wasn't under your usual criticizing eyes." I joked about the last part, staring at the carpet.
"Ah." I said simply, thinking some more. "I guess it's hard to tell the absolute, positive truth constantly." I thought about how Felix had never told me about the whole being involved with that Scar dude and the crazy old lady. For the first time, I actually saw logic in him not telling me about it but I didn't say anything.
"What do you want to tell the truth about." I asked, looking up at her. This aught to be long, and maybe a little interesting. At this point, I couldn't tell.
"Well, I'm not gonna say everything since that would be a lie in itself." I started, pausing to think. "I guess, well, I see some reason finally for you keeping from me the fact that you had your future read and were involved in some secret ground or whatever. I'm still a bit pissed but I can see where you're coming from. Some secrets are best left as such."
"Ok, but you never really asked a question." I pointed out, looking at the floor again, looking through my thoughts.
"Well..." I trailed. "There's nothing really specific. I'm obviously not going to say every single thing that's on my mind since some of that crap needs to stay unsaid." I sat thinking....looking for an answer.
"Well, when you think of something, I'll be here." I said, my hand still locked with hers.
I smiled weakly and sighed. Did I even have a sensible answer for his question? 'What do you want to tell the truth about?' I had started this truth trend so I really should have an answer. I didn't though which was my issue.
*I shrugged, my mind coming to a blank, "I'm not the asker, I'm the answerer." I replied,shrugging.
"What about mainly stuff between us like what Eva told you about the whole perfect life thing or how I wasn't really that angry at you earlier." I finally said after what felt like days of silence and thinking. I wasn't sure if it was sufficient or if I could live up to it but it was indeed an answer.
"I already told you our first alternative and both of your futures." I told Anjali, "..Our second alternative was going into town when the Standstill came back. We'd wander for a while before we met this lady named Claire. She told us that the Easter Company made the Standstill happen and that they'd like us to work for them. We had no idea what was instore and that our parents were there until we were both shotdown, Phoenix dead. I would have died shortly after of hunger and no water. When she ment 'easier' she has her own definition for it." I explained, "Apparently she knows what your future is."
"I'm not saying it was a bad choice, Felix. It's just good to know things but what's done is done and I'm willing to except that." I replied, my voice steady. "I don't want to know what my future is. I like finding out myself."
"Me too." I decided, "She went back to the mountains, by the way. She won't be able to tell us anything anymore."
"That's good." I sighed, actually glad that she was gone. Eva had freaked me out ever since I saw her and I knew right off the bat she was whack. If I could eliminate some of the crazy, I would. Some of it is necessary though.
*I glanced up at my hand, which was losing circulation, and then at her to see her reaction. "Yeah."I replied, simply.
I realized that Felix's hand was in an awkward position just then and smiled. I slid off the chair to sit on the floor beside Felix, grinning. "Is that any better?" I asked.
"Yeah." I replied, smiling back as I clenched my hand into a fist multiple times to get the circulation back, "Iron steel grip." I muttered.
I laughed a little and nodded. "That's good. We wouldn't want to have to amputate any hands today."
"That would suck."I agreed, 'specially since it was my right hand.
"Indeed it would." I sighed, looking up at Felix. What else was there to say? All of this was random rambling. My impulses had been weird lately but this one, this was the one that confused me most looking back. I leaned forward and kissed Felix, knowing that it probably surprised the crap out of him but...
That took my off-guard. I mean I really wasn't expecting that. I couldn't say I didn't enjoy it, especially if Ace walked in, which I knew he wouldn't. It just felt right.
I sat back, smiling. I was right, I had surprised him and it actually helped brighten my day even more. I didn't know what I expected now, so I just kinda sat like a lot of this day had been spent doing.
I didn't know what to say either, so I just grinned like a stupid idiot who saw the sunshine for the first time. I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out.*
I couldn't help but laugh at the stupid grin on Felix's face. It was quite hilarious after all.
"Come on," I rolled my eyes, putting my grin down to a smile, "You ruined the moment." I punched her shoulder, playfully.
"No, you did with that stupid grin on your face." I retorted, laughing and jabbing him in the arm back. "You looked like a little 3rd grader that just got kissed but a high school prom queen or somethin'."
"Well thanks, great comparison." I smirked, trying to imagine her in a prom dress. "But your no prom queen, sweety." I said, truthfully.
"Psh, I've known that for years." I replied, posing ridiculously like some sort of cheerleader or in general preppy high school chick. "Never been my gig. Never will be."
"I'm glad." I said, "'Cause if you were a cheerleader I couldn't make fun of you so easily!" I leaned against the chair with satisfaction.
"Aw I'm flattered." I said in an overly sweet voice, fluttering my eyes for effect. "Really, quite flattered."
*I rolled my eyes, not thinking up a good answer to reply back with. I used to be Mr.Smooth, what happened?*
"Gosh how can people do that. Now my eyes itch." I muttered, rubbing my eyes.
"Do what? Roll their eyes?" I questioned.
"No, flutter eyelashes. It made my eyes all dry and stuff." I answered, blinking my eyes back to normal.
"Ok then..."I said, trying not to laugh. I looked down at her, "Where does this leave us?"
I scratched the back my head, shrugging. "Where do you think it leaves us cause I got no clue." I replied.
"I asked you first..." I muttered like a child. "Quite frankly, I don't know."
"Okay...Um..." I thought for a moment, stroking my invisible goatee. "What about where we were before? We're back there."
"But I died, we had a bunch of fights and trust issues, and technically you are married to Ace." I countered.
"Well, at the present time of the StandStill, you're alive. At the moment, the fights and trust issues have been worked out and at this point, I don't give a crap about Ace anymore." I replied automatically.
"But, a the Easter organization has not given up and I doubt Ace will either. Doesn't matter if you give a crap or not"
I sighed, looking down at my feet. "Do you remember when I first decided to be with you and you told we there was gonna be a lot of baggage on the way and that I should turn back? Well, I said no and stayed with you. Do you really think I would give up this far into the game?" I questioned.
"I never know what your gonna choose." I replied, "But each-time you surprise me."
"Yep! That's one of my favorite qualities of my social life." I said with a grin.
*I snorted, closing my eyes. There was something truly bothering me, and it was funny because it wasn't about relationships, or Easter Organization, or my brother or even the Standstill.*
"Are you alright?" I asked, my tone suddenly serious as I realized something up with Felix.
*I nodded, "Yeah. Just, I did a little research about my dad." I hadn't talked about my real dad in...quite a long time. "Figured out he was a professional surgeon, had a wife and two kids and lived close to Stillington." My mouth went dry, "He was assassinated this morning for being a spy for our T.F organization."
I was stunned into silence, gnawing on my lower lip. What was I supposed to say to that? 'Oh my mom died a few months ago too so yeaaa...' Like that was even relatable. I kept my mouth shut for the sake of Felix as well as my mind. The littlest thing to you could be the worst to someone else.
"I just needed to tell someone out loud that wasn't Phoenix, that's all." I regained my postured.
"Alrighty." I sighed, shaking my head. "It sucks when people die that are actually half-way decent."
*I nodded, "Yeah." was all I said. We sat there for a few moments as I mulled over my thoughts, "How's your arm?"
"The stitches are kinda itchy and it hurts a little bit but it's fine overall." I replied, looking at my arm.
"That's good." I say, remembering that the advil was in the top shelf of the first left cupboard.*
"Indeed." I breathed, sitting back against the chair and sighing.
*I closed my eyes, slightly tired, but still wide awake. I doubted I'd fall asleep tonight.*
I was really tired but at the same time propelled to do something which kept me annoyingly from any amount of sleep. I just sat there, eyes closed.
"You should sleep."I recommended, seeing how tired she was, "It's been a long day."
"I would if I could." I replied, my voice sounding a bit rusty.
*I rolled my eyes, standing and picking her up and throwing her over my shoulder as I walked towards the closed door of her bedroom.*
"Woah where did the ground go?" I asked, looking around. "Hey everything's upside-down now, what's up with that?"
"Gravity stopped." I said, sarcastically. I opened the door and went in, plopping her down onto the bed.
"Hm, weird." I replied, looking around. "Gravity is gettin' faulty these days."
"Your telling me."I said, opening the covers, "Your exhausted, sleep, please."
"I can try. No guarantees." I replied, lying down, my head lying a bit uncomfortably on the pillow which I had to take and hit once or twice before I was comfortable. With that, I laid there, waiting for sleep.
*I stood there for a moment after folding the blankets over and I felt accomplished. I started to head towards the door.*
"HEY! I think your mission's failing by the way." I said, turning to look at Felix. I really didn't feel like I was getting anywhere sleepwise at the moment.
*I rolled my eyes, walking back and pulling a small chair up to the edge of the bed, "What can I do to help you fall asleep."
"That's a good question." I answered, rolling over onto my back so I was staring up at the ceiling. "The ceiling of this place looks funny."
*I let out a sigh, "I can't fix that." it didn't seem to be going anywhere, "Look, it's like 3:00am if you haven't noticed. Your exhausted, at least try to sleep. For me?"
"I tried. And failed. Why are you allowed to be so awake?" I replied, not taking my gaze off the ceiling.
"Would it make you feel better If I tried to sleep too?" I felt as if I were talking to my 7 year old daughter, and barley suppressed a snicker.
"Hm...Maybe." I reasoned, being as annoying as possible at this point.
"Seriously, what do you want me to do?" I could tell she was playing with me.
"I don't know." I replied, still staring at the ceiling.
"Think of something. The ceiling won't answer for you."
"The ceiling is quite wise you know, Ceiling Cat lives there."
*I groaned, leaning back in my chair. If she didn't sleep she'd be cranky.... D:
I smiled to myself. I had many other little annoy remarks but I decided to save them for another day. I let myself drift off silently, having a peaceful sleep for the first time in months.
*I smiled, going into the living room to watch TV.*
At least I thought it was gonna be peaceful. It was at first then something started going on. I was awake at that damn house Felix's parents had bought. I saw Ace's silhouette in the darkness and it looked stiff and poised for a fight. I think there was another person there but I couldn't quite see. Suddenly, lightning flashed, making me jump and I saw Felix's face, his eyes cold and angry and Ace's face steady and challenging. When the lightning flashed again, I saw the glint of a dagger and it pierced the chest of one of them but before I could see who, I snapped awake. Cold sweat was all over me and I was shaking. I must've cried out because now my throat felt dry. What was that dream all about?
"Anjali!?" I knocked on the door. It was 4:56 and I knocked down a lamp after hearing her piercing scream.
"I'm fine. It's nothing..." I swallowed, my breathing still really uneven. I looked around, unsure of what else to say.
*I ignored her words and opened the door, immediately going to sit by her and started rubbing her back. Some times it was best to be silent.*
Felix's comfort helped me calm down a bit and I managed to slow my breathing. I wiped my hand across my forehead to wipe the cold sweat off and took a deep breath, closing my eyes in attempt to regain my composure.
"I'll be right back."I said, standing up and planning on getting her a glass of water.
"Oookay." Was all I could say, now my hands were clasped together and I was trying to think through that dream. One of them had died and my mind hadn't allowed me to see which one, leaving it a mystery for me to ponder til the issue came up again. What did it mean and I swore to God that if this had to do something with Eva, I'd strangle the lady with my bare hands.
*If she didn't have a heart-attack, I'm pretty sure I had. I poured the glass of water and walked back into the bedroom, plopping down onto the bed, "Here.." I said.
"Thanks." I took the glass in shaky hands, taking a sip and holding it in my lap. "This is part of the reason why I really don't get any sleep anymore."
"I'm sorry." Was all I could say as I rubbed her back.
"Don't be. It's my twisted mind that has the blame." I replied, tapping my head.
"Doesn't matter," I said, "I can still feel sympathy."
"If you say so." I said with a tight voice, still shaking slightly. I don't know why I was spooked so by since I have had worse dreams but this one just seemed to stick.
"Do you want me to stay in here for a little while, or what would you like to do?" I asked, wanting the nightmare to go away.
"I really don't know. It would probably be better if you stayed." I replied.
*I nodded, feeling a bit tired and cold myself. "Move over,"I ordered.
I scooted over and laid back down, staring up at the ceiling once again. I knew it wouldn't take too long for me to fall asleep this time but who knows what would happen.
*I moved underneath the covers and put my arm around Anjali, bringing her close. I started humming, softly, this one lullaby I had written on the piano when I was 8.*
I fell quickly asleep and this time around, I thought I was actually out of the woods as far as nightmares go. This time, I was in bed, curled up with Felix like I had fallen asleep. I could feel his warmth and all of that and all of a sudden, a shot rang out and I saw the flash of white hair and pale skin and I turned around to see Felix's face pale and his eyes wide, his blood splattered everywhere. He convulsed repeatably then lay limp, all along I could hear my name 'Anjali! Anjali! Anjali!' But I couldn't respond. "Felix! No! Wake up!" I cried in my dream which sounded like frantic murmuring in the real world. "FELIX!"
"Anjali.."I whispered, shaking her, "Please, wake up!" I shook her again a little more forcefully.
I was breaking down in my dream which was whimpering and more frantic mumbling in the real world. "No! WHY!" I yelled, spinning around. I saw Ace also on the ground, blood splattered across his brown leather jacket and staining his pale skin and hair. A dagger was stuck right through his chest which confused me even more. The gun that had killed Felix lay by his hand, looking scarily ominous. I took a step towards it and felt myself falling and falling til I jerked awake. "YOU'RE ALIVE." I gasped as soon as I saw Felix, I hugged him tightly, savoring the moment and trying to calm down at the same time.
*I hugged her back, flattening her hair and murmuring stuff like, "It's ok. Just a dream, I'm a live." in a low voice. Whatever was haunting her, I guess it was me dying. Note to self: Don't die. Psh... Easy enough.
I was shaking and I could feel tears on my face. Never had I been in such a bad state til now. I couldn't believe myself! They were just dreams. Just...Really scary dreams but what did that matter? It's not like they meant anything just crazy things my mind put together, right? I couldn't bring myself to agree with those thoughts and I all I could do to keep myself from going completely insane was knowing Felix was actually still alive.
*I wiped one of her tears away. I didn't like seeing her in this state, it scared and saddened me. We continued hugging, but I kept looking at her face, looking beat-up and ragged. Must be some pretty messed up dreams.*
I couldn't fall asleep again. Once I had finally regained my composure I sat back, taking deep breaths and rubbing the tear stains away. I could tell Felix was just as wigged out as I was about this whole thing and he hadn't even seen the grotesqueness of the dreams.
"Are you ok? I could go get something for you..." I trailed, looking at her state. I wish I had experienced the dreams instead of her.*
"I'm fine, I don't need anything." I assured, tangling my fingers together nervously.
"....." My mouth came open and then went into a straight line, "Would you like to talk about it?"
"It wasn't exactly the most pleasant experience and unpleasant experiences aren't fun to relive, dream or not." I reasoned, getting my fingers twisted in some sort of knot that I had to pick apart.
"That's fine." I replied, really wanting to know, but not pushing it.
I really didn't want to relive it but I didn't want to let the memory just sit in my mind with no consent. "Well..Um..." I thought a moment. How was I supposed to phrase it? "Well, I think to put it simply, I saw I think Ace kill you with this pistol and I watched you die and I looked over and Ace was driven through with this random dagger and blood was just everywhere and I tried to run, to get help, to do something but I woke up instead." I said as simply as I could.
Well, I guess the whole screaming my name makes sense in this situation. "I'm sorry your dreams are...un-pleasant, scary." I gave her hand a tight squeeze.
"I don't understand why these dreams are shaking me so bad. I've had worse but these ones seem to mean something..." I murmured.
"I'm not going anywhere. I promise." The intensity in my eyes burned.
"You really can't make guarantees like that." I sighed, my eyes showing weariness. "But thank you, Felix. A whole lot."
"But I can..." I murmured so low, I couldn't hear myself let a lone know if I had said it, "Your welcome."
I smiled a weary smile and hugged Felix close again, never wanting to let go at this point.
"Anjali.." I said looking down at her, "I love you."
(See I was gonna do loooovvveee but I didn't wanna ruin the moment.)
"I love you too, Felix." I said softly, reaching out to kiss Felix lightly.
Once I had actually passed out a couple hours ago, my mind did nothing more but that was probably because I was under extreme circumstances. Anyway, I woke drowsily and sat up, blinking and looking around my room, not really wanting to get out of bed.
*I had fallen off the bed and was passed out on the floor, clutching a pillow.*
"Sleeepyhead." I said in a sing-song voice in Felix's ear and nudging him with my foot.
*I farted and then laughed a ferocious laugh, sitting up but then falling back down.*
"Oh that's nice." I said, laughing. I jumped up and exited the room to the kitchen, looking for some food.
*My echo lasted for a couple minutes, and when it finally roared down I exited the room, going towards the kitchen.*
I decided to make pancakes and got the mix out and all, setting up the griddle. I liked making pancakes as I long I didn't mess 'em up. I had only done that once so far and I was determined not to do the same thing again.
"Smells good."I complimented, going towards a cupboard to get a glass for my orange juice.*
"Hopefully they won't end up failures like last time." I said, flipping the pancakes over which were almost done now. I was eager to get today now that was out of the phase of self-destruction, for now at least. I didn't know what my future held so I couldn't say anything for sure.
*I took a glass out of the cupboard and went to the fridge and took out the bottle of orange juice, steadily pouring it. After taking a few drinks, I turned to lean onto the island and watch. "What's our plan for today?" Captain...
"Eh, I'm thinking about heading out, just doin' stuff." I said with a shrug as I flipped over the last pancake and shut the griddle off. I set them on the island and picked one up, eating it. "Got any ideas?"
*I picked a pancake up, munching on it thoughtfully, "If anything, I just want to walk around the Marketplace, buy random stuff." I explained.
"Sounds like a good plan." I agreed, I swallowed my pancake and grabbed another one. It was weird how fast my state of mind had clicked back into place. Almost too weird...Oh well. I wasn't gonna linger over it now.
*I sat there, just eating pancakes. I looked up at Anjali and you could tell she thought something was off.
I shook my head to clear it and went back to my room, quickly changing into some jeans and a t-shirt. "Hey, do you know where my boots ended up?" I asked Felix as I walked by, looking for them. It was weird having such ordinary conversation at this point.
"Nope. You took them off yesterday, remember?" I replied, munching on the last pancake.
"Yeah I just don't remember where I put them..." I muttered, snapping. "Oh! They must've been shoved under my bed." I walked back into my room, retrieving my boots.
*I shrugged, finishing the pancake. "Hey, I'll meet you down by the lobby in 20, I have to shower and stuff."I called.
"Okie dokie." I sighed, putting my boots on and grabbing my jacket. I went out into the hallway and exited, enjoying the fresh scent of outside.
*I took the elevator down to my floor and walked into my open door, smiling at it's presence. Lot's 'o' memories here. I went into the bathroom and hopped into the shower, brushed my teeth, combed my hair, and got brand-new clean clothes! It was amazing, I know. I searched through the room for a draw-string bag and then went to go find my secret stash of stuff-- under my bed. I had a dagger, 400$, a credit card I stole from my parents, two granola bars and a box of keepsa-- Where was my box? I searched through the underneath of my bed but didn't find it. I'd have to ask Phoenix what he did with it, but for now, I closed the bag and walked out the door, jogging down the stairs.*
I walked silently along the sidewalk, not too far but far enough to keep some peace at mind. It was weird how quick my life had changed back to norm--the way it was. Nothing I ever did could go labeled 'normal.'